N my heart starts pounding...

You know that feeling you get when you're in the presence of a certain someone who makes you giggle on the inside and out? When (despite your better judgment) you can't help but think about that someone day and night and even pray for a sweet dream that includes him when you close your eyes in slumberland? When you see him from afar and try so hard to look away for fear of looking desperate; but you can't help it and you just have to get a good long look at him, as though you will never see him again tomorrow? Your heart starts pounding frantically against your chest and you know what's coming next. You're about to fall so hard, head over heels in love.

I don't believe in love at first sight. I might claim to be a hopeless romantic but honestly, how can you even suggest that it's true love after having seen just a glance of someone? It's only infatuation. N the symtoms above are merely side effects from this infatuation-bug. So I admit, while I might not be quite as crazy "in love" just yet, I'm getting dangerously close. Even with my eyes wide open, seeing that this could not possibly have a fairytale ending; I'm falling - FAST! And I'm not even sure why this guy. Why HIM? My heart just has a way of toying with my feelings.

And I tried to walk away. N was almost successful. I had almost convinced myself to head to the nearest exit. But then I see him again. And as he stands up close to me and I'm looking straight into his eyes, my mind goes blank and my heart starts pounding. So hard that for a moment I lose my breath, but then I wake up to reality and tell myself to breathe. And it's just like any other day. We turn to go our separate ways. He doesn't care, he doesn't know. And I'd like to keep it like that. Maybe then I will not fall again. Maybe this time, I wouldn't have to hit rock bottom.

Boarding the Long Catch-Up Train -Part 1

Hello World!!

I know.. I know.. I'm sorry for not writing for so long. My bloggie is practically dead now, but no one was harmed in the process right? ;) Anyway, having missed so many moments that have passed so far, I'm going to board the long catch-up train and try my best to illustrate what's been going on in my dull, boring little life. (Feel free to disagree that my life is boring) ;)

First of all, this happened pretty long ago when it was still the end of cny. Finally!! A School gathering. Thank you Shien Ni for organizing it, for volounteering your house, and for being a great host. Special commendation too to your mother and sister. The food was pretty good too! I mean, it looked good. SOrry I couldn't try everything, I had dimsum breakfast at 11am. ;)

But it was so awesome to meet up with the ppl from SMKBUD2 again. Well, not everyone was there but many of us were, and we had a nice bonding time. ;) With the careful exception of when everyone went gambling (I'm a serious NO gambling person), only 3 of us were left sitting around the sofa watching mtv and chit-chatting. :) Oh, and we did take group pics too. Huai Poh had a nice EXPENSIVE camera to do that job!! ;)

Next in line... MMMm..

Oh!!! mY birthday.. Well ok, so I might not REALLY have a birthday this year.. Being born on the 29th Feb and all isn't exactly fun or unique; it's like I have to decide every year if I want to have it in March or February; and I can't begin to count how many ppl I've met who repeatedly tease me about my age. But that's all ok! After years and years of it, I think I've more or less accepted that I'm born on a special day, and how many ppl can say that? ;) hehe Anyway, the 28th of February was just the day before my bio test, and mind you, I've not been doing so well in bio lately. It's saddening as I like the subject; but yea, the surprise quizzes really took me by surprise, and the rest as we say, is history.

So I decided not to throw a party, in a way, I was kinda lazy to do so too. ;) I just wanted a cake, which I also, in the end decided not to have because no way was I going to finish a cake all by myself. Imagine the pounds I'll put on!! So I just received many bday wishes, on facebook and thru sms. That was fine with me. :) I was considerably happy. haha But then, imagine my surprise when my dear darling college buddies ( a few of them) namely: Jannah Lam, Kevin, Chung Kit, Judith, Shafira, Camille, Nicholas, Yoo Jin and Dexter surprised me with a "SURPRISE" happy-birthday-to-you "party" at the rooftop of Sunway college. Yea, I would''ve suspected something, what with all my friends acting all weird the whole day but for some reason that still blurs me now; I could not guess what was going on when Judith and Camille kept giving silly excuses for going up to the rooftop. Perhaps my mind was distracted. I WAS supposed to be going for drama practice and dance practice. But then as the excuses got more and more ridiculous, I suppose I suspected something was up. But then, it wouldn't be a success if I didn't look surprised, would it? ;)

Thank you guys for the cake. N happy birthday to Mr Q too!! His bday was on the 1st of March and we shared the bday cake. :) Ermm so I think that's it for February. Oh, and did I mention that I got 24 out of 25 for my bio test? The studying paid off!! haha Yay!!!! :)

will catch up again soon.

xoxo